Object in mirror may be bigger then they appear

Well i was looking at some recent pictures of my self and I couldn't beleive how fat I look.

I decided that i am fatter then i feel. In my minds eye and a gorgeous sex goddess. I really need to lose weight. I have talked to my hubby and told him i would like to work out at 9:00 after i put Emily to sleep. I think he said that would be ok. I also need to eat better. im gonna go to the store tonight and buy some vegetables and fruit so i can snack during the day. Maybe that will help me not eat as much at meal times. I also need to eat healthier meals or just less food. I don't know i am so overwhelmed with the determination to go through with it and then at the same time i am revolting against any idea of a diet. Life is a B*tch.