Object in mirror may be bigger then they appear

Well i was looking at some recent pictures of my self and I couldn't beleive how fat I look.

I decided that i am fatter then i feel. In my minds eye and a gorgeous sex goddess. I really need to lose weight. I have talked to my hubby and told him i would like to work out at 9:00 after i put Emily to sleep. I think he said that would be ok. I also need to eat better. im gonna go to the store tonight and buy some vegetables and fruit so i can snack during the day. Maybe that will help me not eat as much at meal times. I also need to eat healthier meals or just less food. I don't know i am so overwhelmed with the determination to go through with it and then at the same time i am revolting against any idea of a diet. Life is a B*tch.

Bad Metabolism...

I was thinking about purchasing the 6 week body makeover kit. I went onto the sixweekbody.com website and took their quiz. I am body type B. I can build muscle easily but my metabolism is slow, so my body isn't turning the food i eat into energy fast enough so it is storing it as fat. I guess my big problem is that i only eat 2 times a day. I am supposed to have Breakfast, Mid-Morning snack, Lunch, Mid-afternoon snack, and dinner. It of course needs to be healthy stuff, but if i eat smaller amounts through out the day then i should be able to boost my metabolism. I am searching online for Metabolism boosting diets and i am going to try to do it my own way first. If that fails then i am just going to buy the kit.

So here is my issue. I can commit to monday, wednesday and friday workouts. any other day is just a bonus if i go. Let me tell you why. i get off work at 5 and then i work out until about 6:15ish. I then drive out to raft river to pick up my daughter. i dont usually get back until about 7:00. when i get home i make dinner which takes about an hour. i eat and feed Emily. at about 9:00 i take emily a bath and put her to bed anywhere between 9:30 & 10:00. i then need to clean up the house and take a shower. So i dont go to bed until about 11:00. So my problem is that i never really have any quality time with my hubby and daughter on the days i workout. To me that is very important. Thats why i can only commit too 3 days a week.

Well im having a FML moment in my life. I really havent noticed much of a difference in my body. I am a stress eater and i have a lot of stress rigt now so i have to keep myself away from food. its hard. no wonder alot of people are overweight, every where you look there is somthing to do with food. <sigh> im having a hard time right now. i went to the gym today and did a mile on the cross train machine and 2 miles on the bike. an hour flys by when i work out.

Goin Strong!!

Well joining the gym was the best decision ever!!! Carrie (who i am now calling the energizer bunny, she just keeps going and going) is totally addicted to working out. She goes everday sometimes twice a day! She is my role model. She is going to look so smokin hot in no time. I haven't figured out when the best time would be for me to workout but i am thinking right after work. I know Treena and Carrie have a hard time going at that time but I think that time is easier for me and I also think its easier for Savannah. Either way i love the gym. I love the weight machines and diffrent cardio machines. So far My favorite is the tredmil and cycle. The Best Part.......all the machines have T.V.'s hooked up to Cable, so i can watch my shows while i work out. LOVE IT!!! There are some pretty interesting people that go to the gym. There was a older lady in her 60+'s and she was totally kickin my a** on the weights. And i don't understand how people can run for hours straight on the machine. I can barley go a minute. Oh well i know i will reach that point someday. Whoo!!

GymMember-R-US

Well I took the plundge and commited myself to a 3 years of Gym excersising. I am so EXCITED!!! I have fabulous friends to go with, Carrie, Savannah, and Treena. We all joined Impact Athletic yesterday. I can't wait for the variety of equipment and excersises that i can do. No more of the same routine. I saw some of the women that walked in there and most of them were about my size so i won't feel out of place with a whole bunch of skinny tanned barbie dolls. Super-duper excited

The best part about this gym is that it's located right next to the hospital so if i end up passing out then its not to far away.

Here are my Gym Buddies, we are going to have so much fun together and laugh to much at each other.

Carrie Bennett


Carrie is super fun and always makes me laugh. She has a great sense of humor and has a great smile. She is my good friend and also my AWESOME blog stalker.

Savannah Guzman

Savannah has been my best friend forever and we have a sister-like relationship. She is so much fun to be around and we are constently laughing. She is my motivator and keeps me on track fro the excersises and diet.

Treena Crawley


I have worked with Treena for about a year. She is a blast and easy to talk too. I feel like I have known her forever.

Motivation is key

Well I have gotten to wear I drink a bottle of water a day. I have also hit a mile stone. I have lost 5 lbs!! But I haven't been working out my three days a week, i just kind of throw in some strength excersise every now and then. Its not very effective. So I have been thinking about joining a gym. I am getting super bored with the flirty girl dancing and i don't feel like its enough of an excersise. I think i want to get on a machine and sweat my guts out. The only problem is that i don't know anyone that has a membership too. So i would have to go by myself and i don't know if i would be able to motivate myself to go as often as i want. As far as the diet goes i don't think im doing to bad. I have a lean cuisine for lunch and i love them. They are so small that i didn't think i would feel full, but i do. My favorite so far is the pizza. At dinner time i eat regular food just in moderation. I read that stress causes strange eating habits and a tenancy to over eat. My husband and I are applying to buy our first home and it is very stressful, so think i just need to keep that in mind. I have a good friend that is setting small goal for herself and then rewarding herself once they are accomplished. I think that is a fabulous idea. I know that if i hit my long term goal then i am rewarding myself by going shopping for new clothes. I'll have to think of some small rewards form my small goals! Thanks for the idea Carrie!

Smaller Goals Equal BIG Success

Well im going to keep my long term goals but I need to set some smaller weekly goals or even daily. I think i will start with trying to drink one bottle of water everyday. I am really bad at drinking water. I usually only drink while i am eating at lunch and dinner. Lets start with that goal and see how it goes. I don't have to many ideas of smaller goals so leave me comments about suggestions. I can use them.

This is for the fans.

I would like to Thank the two friends that left me comments! I know who one of the people are but not sure of the other, i think it may be my stalker. I love you all and i wouldn't be here without you! ok ok all kidding aside I really do appreciate everyone's support.  Because of the encouragment I am suckin it up and im gonna keep on truckin. I had an orange for lunch because I just could not bring myself to gag down the brown rice. For dinner I had a chicken salad. I didn't work out today, unless you count what me and my hubby did...(wink wink). I do plan on working out tomorrow. My mom will have Emily late so i am going dust off the cardio Go-Go dance Dvd and get my butt movin! I haven't worked out to this dvd in.......over a year! yeesh! All i remember is you have to jump up like 50 times. I don't mind jumping but I know two of my "special" body parts that don't appreciate it as much. I haven't noticed much of a diffrence yet. My clothes still fit the same, the scale and measuring tape aren't doing much either. I hope i can start seeing somthing soon. Just a boost in energy would be nice (I heard healthy people are more energized and spunky). Can you imagine me being spunky! Let's GO-GO!!

Cheater Cheater Candy Eater and only the 2nd day!

Well Day two of the 7 day diet. I had a small grilled chicken salad for lunch and a bowl of vegetable soup for dinner. I did good but then i ate a homemade caramel, it was a moment of weakness. But I think I will still be ok. I worked out with Savannah tonight and I almost died. Picture it, ME in my work out gear all energized and really getting into the moves, kicking high, hips thrusting and my booty is shakin! HELL YEAH!!! now fast forward 30 minutes, im hunched over breathing hard, you can hear my heart pounding from a mile away, my kicks are barley leaving the ground, I am standing there looking at Savannah like 'are you freaking kidding me!' and I am ready to sit on my booty and eat some Caramels. Then Savannah tells me to get off my FAT @$$ stupid and get to work! No just kidding!! She tells me "you can do it!" "It will all be worth it in the end!" and then somehow I just finish my workout, whether they look like they are supposed too is a different story.....but that doesn't matter I finished! I guess if it wasn't hard then it probably wouldn't be working right! please tell me that right.....

Gettin' Serious!

Well today is the day that I start getting really serious. I have been working out for the last 4 weeks, 3 times a week and dieting. I am having trouble sticking to the diet, so i decieded to put myself on a very strict cleansing diet for 1 week. In consists of brown rice and vegetables. I think I can, I think I can. I have also sworn off soda. Well I actually swore off soda yesturday but I caved and had one but I did get rid of the rest of it so i wouldn't have that temptation around. So I am officially starting my soberity today. I had an apple for breakfast which isnt saying much because i never eat breakfast anyway, but where i am only aloud a one cup serving of food per meal i am definetly eating breakfast. I would be starving by dinner time. I worked out last night with "My Motivator", Savannah, yesturday after work and OMG the work out she had planned kicked my @$$. We have been working out to the FlirtyGirl Fitness DVD's and the rock. I'll be making some extra money in no time. Just kidding, but I was sweatin like crazy and my body felt like Jello. If it burns its working! Working out is such a blast. I like how comfortable I am....I know I don't have to be ashamed of the "to much pressure flatulence", we just laugh it off and go on with the workout. Actually we laugh most of the time that we are working out given the accidental air releases, the strength bands snapping up and smacking us in the behind or head, and the moaning and groaning during our "cat crawl pushups" (way harder then a regular pushup). I have been fortunate enough not to have the morning after sore muscle regrets yet. I measured myself last night and by butt is getting bigger, everything else is the same. Not what i wanted but it should start going the other way. I have lost 2 pounds though! So I give myself a mental high five for that. YAY ME!!!